back home and contemplating

I am home now from the harsh treatments of chemo. I have changes physically and mentally and emotionally. I am speechless. I dont have much to say about this experience. I was sad tough as I layed in bed for two weeks in pain and agony, throwing up here and there and yelling for nurses to bring me a bucket. I feel different like life has slowed down for me and I appreciate and cherish more moments than ever. The chemo has made my skin darker. My toes and feet are black and I have what looks like leopard spots on my back. The steroids have left me swollen and emotional. I know now I need changes in my life and that is with changing my job and going to grad school.